Posted 1 year ago 
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I was just thinking about all the people that use to be a part of my life who no longer are. I often wonder do I ever cross their mind as they do mine from time to time.
When I see candy cigarettes, have a glass of ice cold red kool-aid or see pigs in the blanket I think of Rotonya my childhood bff. Rotonya and I did everything together she was my ride or die friend at age 5. I remember this one time the teacher was threatening to whip the whole class for something that one person did. Rotonya told our teacher not to whip me because I did not do anything and we both ended up getting a whipping that day for me refusing to be whipped and her holding me down. I moved she got new friends but I will always cherish those times we had.
Every time I hear a Boyz to Men or Al Green song on the radio I think of Terrell. I have never had a male who was just my friend who understood me like he did. He was my best friend and when we said I love you both of us were sincere. We could talk about anything and I mean anything. Although, our friendship had a weird way of being crafted we had some awesome times together. He is one of the people I miss not being a part of my life the most. If I could turn back the hands of time he would still be in my life if I had anything to do with it. We have so many good memories but my favorites are when we went to the fair together and when he came to visit me my Freshmen year of college. These were truly priceless moments. Good friendships are hard to come by so if you truly have one worth keeping do your best to maintain it.
When I think about pen curls, braids and No Limit Soldiers I always think about Latonya. Tonya and I did everything together from 7th- 11th grade. We were like two peas in a pod. We had matching outfits& bff charms, the whole nine. It has felt kind of weird not having her by my side all of these years. I often wondered what if all the things I have accomplished alone how it would have been if we were able to experience them together. We had a lot of fun memories too but the one that I will cherish the most is that she let me name her first child; which makes me feel old because Kayla should be about 10 years old now. I don’t know where she is now I just hope that she is doing great.
When I think of female rappers I think of Valencia and I. You could not tell me that we were not going to be the next big thing in rap. Big Sexy & Lil Sexy our alter egos but we had rap names as well. One of my favorite moments with her is when we auditioned for the school talent show. We killed that audition. I know she is still doing the rap thing as a writer so it will not be surprising if I ever hear her on the radio because she is cold with it.
When I think about rapping or smell Issey Miyake cologne I think of Zerick. Zerick was the complete opposite of me. I was a nerd and he was what many would classify as a thug, totally the opposite of the type of guys I liked. Zerick and I had a very special relationship and some very memorable conversations and moments. One of my favorite memories about him is when we were paired to do a project in English class and our topic was abstinence. He and I wrote raps and his rap was called “The Prize Between Your Thighs”. The teacher liked our performance so much she had us perform it for the 5th period Spanish class we took from her too. Zerick switched schools and we lost touch and then news reached me that he had been shot in the head and was partially blind and that is that last time I spoke to him. He taught me more than he would ever know and I appreciate him for everything he taught me about people.
There are many other people who I could name but I would be writing another book, lol. In none of the above instances was there a big falling out we all just simply grew apart and as humans it is natural to do that. This just goes to show that because someones season maybe over with in your life you never have to forget them. I will never forget them as well as the individuals that I did not mention. As long as photo albums and memory books exist I will always have a piece of them with me.
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